I’ve been formulating this blog for I think about 3 christmas seasons now, as long as I’ve had kids that have been truly ‘into’ Christmas. It’s been in my mind for so long that I actually had to go back and check that I didn’t write it already.
Every year since I’ve had kids I have looked forward to Christmas, actually make that the Christmas season, almost all year. I start compiling their lists of perfect gifts months before in hopes to make them happy. Of course for the past three Christmases we’ve dealt with random and let’s face it disgusting illnesses, a random bout of hives, hand foot and mouth, pink eye and a severe allergic reaction to shellfish all decided to grace us during Christmas. Every year it spins me into anxiety that my kids will miss out on the magic of Christmas Eve and day. You see my parents gave us the best Christmases. To tell you the truth I only remember clearly one or two presents they gave us. I specifically remember a Fischer price basketball hoop but other than that the memories are blurry. But I remember Christmas Eve at my grams, the cabbage patch puzzle that was hidden upstairs in a closet that we only did on Christmas Eve. Christmas Eve at my aunts with all the shrimp my little stomach could take. The ride home with my mom and dad having us look for Rudolph (I still do this with my kids.) On Christmas morning waiting in my bed eager to wake my parents, and my dad having to ‘check’ if santa came. I still don’t know what he was actually doing. Dancing cheek to cheek all season long with my dad by the Christmas tree as our favorite Christmas songs played on the record player (damn I’m getting old.) These are the things that stick with me and make me hope I can give my own kids such wonderful, comforting memories.
Will I spoil my kids with too many presents this year? You bet, because as I said I love to see them happy. But more than that I hope they remember and cherish the memories we create with them each Christmas and they have the same warm feelings and memories to look back on as I do.